Emotions

Thus far all my blogs have been mostly factual and not many of my opinions and/or feelings have been expressed. It takes a lot of effort and control to find a quiet space to focus on my thoughts. It is a lot easier to just hangout with my friends and chat all night. After only visiting one country so far I have realized more than I expected. After visiting the villages in the middle of the Amazon and seeing the sparse living conditions they deal with everyday, I still can not fully understand how they do it. “Seeing is believing” but even so, I can not believe there are people in this world who live such poor lives. And yet they seem like the happiest people in the world.
I am worried about my return home. I am nervous for two reasons. People are not going to understand me, understand everything that I’ve seen, understand the way I think because of the experiences I have gone through. I just really hope it will be a smooth transition and people will try and accept my stories. I am also concerned about going back to school and my fellow students not giving me the time of day to explain certain things about the world. What if no one cares?
I miss all my friends and family, it is hard not being able to communicate with everyone as I please. If I am still in your thoughts please send me emails: jmwinters@semesteratsea.net it would be greatly appreciated. I can’t wait to go home again and see how big my nephews are getting, to see my newly born second cousin, and of course to see all of my family. PSU friends- I’ll see you in January : ) and home friends- I get back mid December, I have a month to hangout! But first I must travel the world and bring back something that will help me influence many lives in the future.
The food selection is starting to turn my stomach some days. It’s the same thing every meal: salad, pasta, potatoes, meat, and vegetables. But it all tastes the same, there is no seasoning. I can’t wait for Namibia so I can eat decent tasting food again, hopefully.